Well How about my boys??? Did they make me proud or what! I was so excited that for church on Sunday I wore a purple shirt with a yellow mini poncho! I know dorky, but I was proud.

ONE HAPPY MOMENT!!! My poor friends had no idea that Ashton was like this about LSU! Well now they know the real me:)

It would not be fair for me to only talk about one SEC team that did well this weekend, being that I now live in Bama. Auburn showed UGA UP!!! I was so excited about that one, because I was in a room filled with Auburn fans. I mean they cheered for my team I had to return the favor, especially since LSU might have to meet UGA in a few weeks.

Have I talked about how completely awesome God is lately? He is so incredibly faithful and not just to me but also to those around me. One of the most humbling experiences is when you realize that He is using you to show His faithfulness to someone else. I have had a few of those lately and I am just brought to my knees every time, wondering why He is using this naive, inexperienced, selfish, and stubborn 19 year old, but He fulfills His promises regardless of our humanness! That is amazing. Another thing that I have come to understand is this: women in our country today have way too many secrets and hidden hurts! As the Body of Christ we have got to get to the place where we are openly, non-condemning, welcoming these women into our lives so that they can be healed from past hurts and wrongs. We have to come to an understanding that God can use anything. To quote my pastor in Houston, "If God can use a Jack-Ass and a Burning bush, He can use me". That is so true, through and through. I am slowly getting there and I am loving the experience of learning this lesson. God use me, all of me!!! Let me be your mouth piece, and let me be Your Hands and Feet! I give You all of me!

On a lighter note! I love being a girl!

Have a blessed day and seek after Him~Ashton

Some thoughts on worship from Jami Smith, one of my favorite worship leaders!!!

Will we survive this worship trend? Will we emerge as worshippers of God or trend followers?

I am asking God to alert my senses to what is cultural Christianity and what is biblical Christianity. This pursuit is important to me because I want this generation to grow up worshipping God with their lives, but also understanding that music, scripture, art, silence... these things are but tools that remind us that He is the Prize, not these things in and of themselves. We must be careful not to perpetuate a form of legalism, but instead teach others to worship God, not a style, a sound, a worship song, or a worship leader. I want to help teach the body of Christ not to be confused about the purpose of corporate worship. I have unfortunately heard about adults and students saying things like, "I am not going to that conference because this person is leading or this person is not leading," or "I only go to church when he or she leads." Statements like these expose not stylistic preference but heart issues. A heart in love with God does not need its favorite style of music playing to express itself to God.

The musical debate continues to rage over traditional versus contemporary. I am so tired of Satan confusing us and getting our eyes off of Jesus. When our attention is so focused on our preference, we abandon the Prize to crusade our style and it becomes idolatry, ultimately, cheating ourselves. Anytime I worship anything other than God, I cheat me. If I enjoy your response to me or my music more than God, I cheat me; if I enjoy music and the emotions it makes me feel more than God, I cheat me; if I enjoy a new song taking shape musically with the band more than I enjoy God, again I cheat me and miss out on the blessings and sheer joy of interacting with the Lover of my soul and the Savior of the world. I pray we will stop wasting time and start focusing our attention and affection on the One who can satisfy. (Psalm 63)

When You Experience True Worship
Worship is when you walk away and all you can think about is Him and your relationship with Him. You are not thinking about the band or the music or whether or not they did your favorite song. You are simply lost in your thoughts of Him; you are remembering what the Holy Spirit told you and taught you; you are relishing in the satisfaction of your soul because your needs have been heard and met. You have been given love and have received love; moreover, your affection has not been rejected and you are at peace. You are stirred to continue to be obedient to all He has commanded, not out of duty or obligation but because you are in love with your Creator Who loves you like no one can.

True worship results in change of your heart, of your actions, of your mind. Otherwise, we have simply sung a bunch of songs over and over like choir practice. So, either I am a singer and I go away a bit hoarse or I am a worshiper and go away different.

Longing for Genuine Worship
It is a place where I can taste God's original intention for my life to "walk in the garden in the cool of the day" with Him (Genesis 3:8), to commune with Him. In these moments He points out the lies of the world that I am believing more than His timeless promises. In these moments He is King and I am servant; His name is supreme and my name is hidden in His; He is Father and I am child. Music is not the avenue to this; the songs themselves are nothing more than servants, given by God, to remind us that it's all about Him and for Him. Genuine worship is not lifting my hands and wondering if someone is watching. It is not holding hands and swaying with my best friends. It is not even the sound of our voices. Worship is all about the posture of the heart.

Public and Private Worship Times
When I first began traveling and leading worship, a mentor/friend asked me a question that has stayed with me for the last eight years. He asked, "Jami, how is your private worship?"

I remember thinking, "Oops, wait a minute, what does he mean, exactly?" He graciously continued, noting my uneasiness and said, "You will never take a congregation publicly where you have not gone privately."

What a great, humbling teaching moment for me. Corporate worship is intended to be a time for the Body to come together and encourage one another. The early church understood this union as a must to pray for one another to remain strong against false teachings and persecution. Our public worship meetings as a Body of Christ should be an overflow of our private encounters with God. Can you imagine how great our Sunday worship times would be if we were worshipping privately all week long? We would explode when we came together. Instead, sadly, often times we are begging people to sing along. Authentic public worship is an overflow of our private time with God.

How can we sing about His love replacing loneliness or His truth replacing lies if we have never experienced it personally and privately? How can we expect to worship corporately if we do not treasure Him and His words privately?